Punched in the face



So, how many times do you get punched in the face before you stay down on the mat? How many times do you get kicked over and over just trying to stand on your own 2 feet? When do you accept the fact that you cannot take one more single beating? When is it time to bow your head and walk away? Knowing you will never return? How many times does someone snuff your flame before you cannot re-light it? How much pain do you take before calling it quits?

I know the answer to that one.



And, I quit.

STUPID, STUPID, STUPID!!!



Yes, I am STUPID! I ACTUALLY still think I might meet someone that might like to date me. I think that might happen ever time I go out on Friday &/or Saturday nights. And, what could possible give me this idea?? Truthfully, I don't know. So, we are back to the fact that I am STUPID. God, I am so lonely. What I wouldn't give for some hugs & kisses. And, not family or friend hugs & kisses. I can't even talk to any of my friends about things. None of my friends have ever been in this boat. They just see me as needing to try harder. They don't understand. If a 50 year old person is 5'10" tall and they "try" to be 6'10" tall, will they ever get there??? So, if I am completely alone and lonely and I want to find a "soul-mate" and be happy, will I ever get there? NO, of course not. Time to consider alternatives.......