Saturday morning already.

OK, It is 12:44. I just got home from karaoke. Tonight was at a place that only has karaoke on the 2nd Friday of each month. This is the place that really introduced me to karaoke.

Let me back up a bit. Me and a buddy of mine go to this karaoke each month. We look forward to it. The people are like family and it is always a fun experience. This week, another buddy of ours has free. His wife and her kids went out of town. He couldn't go because he had to work. So, he had let us know he was free this week to do stuff. He has also been to this same bar and said he would meet us there. Also, at work, myself and some others have a personal trainer come to our office each Thursday night and we have an hour long workout. She has been to this bar a couple times for karaoke and said she might make it. So, that is me, my normal karaoke buddy, my other married buddy, & my "very hot" personal trainer. So, in theory, I could have had 3 people I know, not counting regulars at the bar, with me tonight. Earlier this week, my married buddy called me to say he might not be able to make it Friday night. He is a photographer and had a shoot on Friday that was a good distance away. So, he wasn't sure he would even be back in town in time. OK, I've know him for awhile. What he was actually saying was that he was NOT going to make it Friday night. OK, one down. Trainer, trainer, trainer. She has a young son that cannot be left home alone. I gave her a 5o/50 chance of showing up at best. She hadn't committed to coming, just said maybe. So, now I'm down to just me and my normal Friday night buddy. Oh, wait, he left me a message on my phone today while I was at work. He wasn't feeling well, wasn't gonna make it to karaoke. OK, I (whom hates to go out alone) was now going out alone tonight. Not the worst night to do that, like I said, lots of regulars. I did have a few fears heading into tonight however. First, I stopped and bought 3 new karaoke discs on the way home from work today. I was gonna do a Garth Brooks song tonight for the very first time. I was gonna do "Ireland". Beautiful song. I've never practiced it, so, I was worried about that. Also, I was worried that the last girl I dated might be there. OK, I haven't told you about her yet (I promise, soon). I had met her at this bar for the January karaoke and she was there for the February karaoke. So, I was really nervous about the thought of seeing her again. Now, all this worry and a hot dog dinner (at the bar) and a few drinks had my stomach doing a very unpleasant dance. Needless to say, I wasn't at my best tonight. I did sing 2 songs. Knocked 'em dead with the first (Kiss - Detroit Rock City) and I didn't do so good on the 2nd (Van Halen - Why Can't This Be Love). My timing was off for the Van Halen song.

I've said before, I've stopped actively looking for anyone to date. That, once again, didn't stop me from scanning the room and "looking". One of the regulars, whom is a friend, moved over to my table with another female friend of hers. At first I thought she might be trying to set me up with the friend. I would have welcomed such a move on her part. But, 'twas not her intent. Her friend, though very attractive, was older than the age range I'm "looking" in. I know, I know, how can you possible be that picky??? I'm not really. But, I still have this delusion that I might actually find someone to have kids with. A couple more years and I'm sure I'll outgrown those stupid thoughts. So, let's just say she was out of my age range. Besides, she just saw me as a younger guy sitting at the same table. Wasn't any indications on her part that I was even a tiny possibility. And that's OK. I wasn't expecting to be. The girl I had dated didn't show up. Worried about that for nothing. There were a couple very attractive girls, but, both had wedding rings. And that was it. Nobody else in the whole place that was attractive to me and didn't have a man already with her. But, that's OK since I'm not really looking anymore. I will admit, it is very hard not to look every time I go out. The only way I could stick to my "not looking" would be if I was a hermit. Ya know, if I could find me a cabin in the woods where I could get all the TV I wanted and I could get online and buy things and have them shipped to me and I could have pizza & other food delivered, and I never had to leave it... that would be perfect. Something tells me that I'm not gonna find a place like that however.

So, I guess the basic point I'm making about tonight..... OK, I look forward to my weekends. Not because I do fun stuff. Nope. I get to sleep most of the weekend away. When I'm asleep, I'm not sad or lonely. I also have that stupid glimmer of hope that I will actually meet someone on Friday or Saturday nights. So, now this weekend is half over as far as meeting anyone. And nothing. Not even the faintest nibble.

Life sucks and then you die!

Well, at least I have the first part of that saying working for me. Now I just have to concentrate on the second part.